Hurt
I have to say I am hurt. Quite hurt in fact. Why might you ask? Well why don't you pull up a chair and I'll tell you.
We all here know that I'm a christian. I love Jesus and I'm happy with all that. You also however know that I don't like forcing my beliefs on anyone. I'll tell you what I think, if you ask. You can choose to be whatever you want and worship whoever you want... fine. It's your choice. Also.. my friends know that I'm not a big fan of "Religion." You've all heard my shpeel on religion being routine blah blah blah. I'm more about spirituality and your relationship with God. So yeah.. just to lay a little ground work.
So this afternoon Ben, our friend Jenna, and I were in the computer lab at school, just working. Nothing special. We just all happened to be in there at the same time. Yay. Well Ben starts talking to Jenna about some evangelist preacher person on campus. You know.. one of those "in your face, you're going to hell" types. I know people don't like those people, I don't like the way they go about spreading the Gospel myself. So Ben starts ripping into this guy and telling Jenna all about it. Then they start Bible bashing and well.. I just couldn't take it. I saved my project and left.
As soon as I walked out, I wanted to cry. I mean... Ben just totally took all the beliefs and my religion and then dumped on it. It made me feel so insignificant and so small. Like everything that I hold dear to me was worthless. Then I wondered.. well if that's how Ben really feels about it, what does he really think about me? I must be totally pathetic and stupid to him. How could someone who is supposed to be one of my best friends... think that about me? Even at that... I was sitting right there when they were talking about all this. Couldn't he have waited till later to talk to Jenna about it.. or wait till I had left or something? But no.. I was sitting right next to him!
I never push my beliefs on Ben and tell him he's wrong for not believing like I do. I've never tried to make him feel bad for what he's done and I don't think I've done it unintentionally. I don't look down on him for the mistakes of his past.. the struggles he goes through.. or anything like that. In fact, I encourage him, I compliment him, and I try to build him up and be there for him.
I just wish that he'd respect my feelings and beliefs. Whoever said, "Sticks and stone can break my bones, but words will never hurt me.. " is a fucking idiot.
I have to say I am hurt. Quite hurt in fact. Why might you ask? Well why don't you pull up a chair and I'll tell you.
We all here know that I'm a christian. I love Jesus and I'm happy with all that. You also however know that I don't like forcing my beliefs on anyone. I'll tell you what I think, if you ask. You can choose to be whatever you want and worship whoever you want... fine. It's your choice. Also.. my friends know that I'm not a big fan of "Religion." You've all heard my shpeel on religion being routine blah blah blah. I'm more about spirituality and your relationship with God. So yeah.. just to lay a little ground work.
So this afternoon Ben, our friend Jenna, and I were in the computer lab at school, just working. Nothing special. We just all happened to be in there at the same time. Yay. Well Ben starts talking to Jenna about some evangelist preacher person on campus. You know.. one of those "in your face, you're going to hell" types. I know people don't like those people, I don't like the way they go about spreading the Gospel myself. So Ben starts ripping into this guy and telling Jenna all about it. Then they start Bible bashing and well.. I just couldn't take it. I saved my project and left.
As soon as I walked out, I wanted to cry. I mean... Ben just totally took all the beliefs and my religion and then dumped on it. It made me feel so insignificant and so small. Like everything that I hold dear to me was worthless. Then I wondered.. well if that's how Ben really feels about it, what does he really think about me? I must be totally pathetic and stupid to him. How could someone who is supposed to be one of my best friends... think that about me? Even at that... I was sitting right there when they were talking about all this. Couldn't he have waited till later to talk to Jenna about it.. or wait till I had left or something? But no.. I was sitting right next to him!
I never push my beliefs on Ben and tell him he's wrong for not believing like I do. I've never tried to make him feel bad for what he's done and I don't think I've done it unintentionally. I don't look down on him for the mistakes of his past.. the struggles he goes through.. or anything like that. In fact, I encourage him, I compliment him, and I try to build him up and be there for him.
I just wish that he'd respect my feelings and beliefs. Whoever said, "Sticks and stone can break my bones, but words will never hurt me.. " is a fucking idiot.
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