A New Dilemma
Right... so I get back from my trip. Well I have this appointment with a Cardiologist at some hospital in Arlington which I've been trying to get set up forever. Because of this whole thing I can't go to my Astronomy class but tha't ok, i have friends who will take notes for me. Since I basically get the rest of the day off I figured I could see Bob. I give him a call and he tells me he would come over, though he might be a little late b/c he needed to do some housework and stuff for his mom. Alrighty, all was set. I went to the doctor, got some ok news, and went home to prepare. And of course, b/c that's just my life, Bob never shows. Yeah, I waited all day being bored out of my mind and he didn't show. Neither did I recieve and e-mail (this was on monday by the way) and still to this day I have not heard from him. I was crushed. I am crushed and oh so incredibly mad! I don't understand. He supposidly cares so much about me and yet he doesn't even try to come see me. He doesn't even think about me (i know b/c i asked). I'm so confused (more than usual). I thought he liked me and wanted to be with me. One of my friends thinks maybe something happened.. another thinks I should dump him... I'm starting to believe my mother. Perhaps she is right.. perhaps all guys do is lie to you.... All I know is how hurt I am. And he probably doesn't even realize it. I've decided I'm not going to call him till I get an e-mail from him.
It's been about 6 days since he never showed and it's been hard. There have been times when just wanted to pick up the phone and give him a call. But what good will it do? He probably doesn't come home to check his e-mail hoping I sent something, he probably doesn't sit by the phone b/w 8-9 (when i usually call) and hope that I might call, he probably doesn't lie in bed at night and think of me, and he probably doesn't discuss me with his friends. His birthday is coming up soon and I had planned on going to Mesquite to visit him, but now I don't know if I want to go. One of my friends thinks I shouldn't go as planned... another thinks I should. I want to, but will he even remember, will he even care? I just don't know. I suppose if I don't hear from his till then I still will and then I'll have to end our relationship. Again, if he did care, wouldn't he try harder?
What about my needs!! Bob and I have been dating for almost two months and we haven't seen each other since we first got together! I remember the way it felt when he held me. I need that. I need to be held and touched and stuff. And I remember vividly the way it felt when Bob softly kissed my neck and then the bite. hehehe. I need that too. Not only do I need just to see him and talk to him, I need to human contact. The only people I hug are my parents and brother. No one kisses me, no one softly touches me, no one holds my hand. I'm about to burst!
Right... so I get back from my trip. Well I have this appointment with a Cardiologist at some hospital in Arlington which I've been trying to get set up forever. Because of this whole thing I can't go to my Astronomy class but tha't ok, i have friends who will take notes for me. Since I basically get the rest of the day off I figured I could see Bob. I give him a call and he tells me he would come over, though he might be a little late b/c he needed to do some housework and stuff for his mom. Alrighty, all was set. I went to the doctor, got some ok news, and went home to prepare. And of course, b/c that's just my life, Bob never shows. Yeah, I waited all day being bored out of my mind and he didn't show. Neither did I recieve and e-mail (this was on monday by the way) and still to this day I have not heard from him. I was crushed. I am crushed and oh so incredibly mad! I don't understand. He supposidly cares so much about me and yet he doesn't even try to come see me. He doesn't even think about me (i know b/c i asked). I'm so confused (more than usual). I thought he liked me and wanted to be with me. One of my friends thinks maybe something happened.. another thinks I should dump him... I'm starting to believe my mother. Perhaps she is right.. perhaps all guys do is lie to you.... All I know is how hurt I am. And he probably doesn't even realize it. I've decided I'm not going to call him till I get an e-mail from him.
It's been about 6 days since he never showed and it's been hard. There have been times when just wanted to pick up the phone and give him a call. But what good will it do? He probably doesn't come home to check his e-mail hoping I sent something, he probably doesn't sit by the phone b/w 8-9 (when i usually call) and hope that I might call, he probably doesn't lie in bed at night and think of me, and he probably doesn't discuss me with his friends. His birthday is coming up soon and I had planned on going to Mesquite to visit him, but now I don't know if I want to go. One of my friends thinks I shouldn't go as planned... another thinks I should. I want to, but will he even remember, will he even care? I just don't know. I suppose if I don't hear from his till then I still will and then I'll have to end our relationship. Again, if he did care, wouldn't he try harder?
What about my needs!! Bob and I have been dating for almost two months and we haven't seen each other since we first got together! I remember the way it felt when he held me. I need that. I need to be held and touched and stuff. And I remember vividly the way it felt when Bob softly kissed my neck and then the bite. hehehe. I need that too. Not only do I need just to see him and talk to him, I need to human contact. The only people I hug are my parents and brother. No one kisses me, no one softly touches me, no one holds my hand. I'm about to burst!
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