Ups and Downs
I've not had the greatest week, but there have been things that have been good none the less. I guess the week got off to a bad start Sunday. Church was great but I went out that night with Sam again to the church. They were having this party night called, "The Sanitarium." The music sucked, there were too many people, Brek was way too drunk and left early, and some girl kept dancing with him, and some dork kept trying to dance with me. It was not fun in the least bit. Of course because we went out and I have class on Monday mornings, I only got about 3 hours of sleep. Monday was fine till I went to the bar with David and the boys. Dave was just being a real asshole and rude. The only one I had fun talking to was Chris, one of Dave's buddies that happens to be in my world lit class. Tuesday was same old same old, still tired. David and I went to lunch like usual and it was all sorts of akward. Wednesday is when things got bad, I just didn't know it yet. Classes were fine, and then I called David and invited him to lunch. I happened to be in a great mood that day and was giddy. Apparently I pissed David off. We'll come back to that. I had my violin jury which went well, opened the design expo, and went home. All seemed fine. I worked on my lighting plot till 5 am but had some nice time with my bro during and Brek called me! We chatted for about 40 mins and found out we were going to the same concert on Friday. Woo hoo I get to see Brek this weekend. But like i said, I was up till 5 am working on that light plot and had to get up at 8 to go to school. Wasn't in the best of moods. I got my critique back on my Medea project and yeah it sucks, and of course she slammed me on my designs for Midsummer. I just feel like I don't cut it as a designer. Lighting was fine but because I was in such a bad mood and kind of whiney, my best friend wasn't very keen to it so that upset me all the more. Then I found out that Dave was really mad at me and compared me to his ex who is a total bitch. So that just added more upset to my day. I cried a little while we watched some lighting video, more more pressure WOO!!!! Angie and I had our portfolio reviews and I feel mine went well. I got to finally voice some concerns and opinions that I usually don't get to. Of course I got all teary again.
Then everything hit again on Friday. David still hadn't talked to me since Wed at lunch. I got a call from Liss during my lit class. It was serious... she usually doesn't call me during the day. She usually doesn't call.
I must have really pissed David off. Apparently he was going to stand me up for the Theatre Banquet and not let me know till 5 minutes before hand. He had told her and then told her not to tell me. He's such an ass! What the hell did i do to make him so upset at me?! I know david and he doesn't usually do mean things like that unless someone makes him really angry, so for him to do that to me, I must have done something awful. But i didn't! I broke down... I cried a lot. The only one I could find to comfort me was Mike. Mike is so great. He helped and suggested talking to David. So I did. I called Dave and we met so we could talk. He did not know at this point that I knew about how angry he was at me or what he was planning. I apologized to him for whatever I did and asked him what it was that I had done. He simply said it was little things that added up. I felt that if something I did bothered him, he needed to let me know so I would stop doing it and we wouldn't have that problem. Like when we first dated, I used to hit him alot, just playful like. Well I learned that he didn't like that, so I stopped! See how easy that is?! Well since I had no idea I was irritating him, it just exploded.
Me: So when were you planning on talking to me again.
David: I don't know.. Next week.
Me: What about the Banquet.
David: I don't know... I hadn't thought about it that far.
BULLSHIT!!! A blatent lie right to my face. Gah!!! I'm so sick of his lying! Why can't he just be honest?! Is it so hard to tell the truth? Why does he have to lie? I don't deserve to be treated like this. If he really was my friend, he would never even think of wanting to hurt me. But he did, he planned on hurting me. We left deciding to take time away from each other and take a break from our friendship. I was overwhelmed and upset. Angie called me and I met with her, Alex, Mike, and Jayme. Angie bought me a drink... they made me feel so much better. When I think about David and my relationship.. it used to be good. We used to make each other happy. I don't think we do anymore. This break will be a good thing. I don't even know if we should be friends anymore. Friends don't treat each other like that.
I've not had the greatest week, but there have been things that have been good none the less. I guess the week got off to a bad start Sunday. Church was great but I went out that night with Sam again to the church. They were having this party night called, "The Sanitarium." The music sucked, there were too many people, Brek was way too drunk and left early, and some girl kept dancing with him, and some dork kept trying to dance with me. It was not fun in the least bit. Of course because we went out and I have class on Monday mornings, I only got about 3 hours of sleep. Monday was fine till I went to the bar with David and the boys. Dave was just being a real asshole and rude. The only one I had fun talking to was Chris, one of Dave's buddies that happens to be in my world lit class. Tuesday was same old same old, still tired. David and I went to lunch like usual and it was all sorts of akward. Wednesday is when things got bad, I just didn't know it yet. Classes were fine, and then I called David and invited him to lunch. I happened to be in a great mood that day and was giddy. Apparently I pissed David off. We'll come back to that. I had my violin jury which went well, opened the design expo, and went home. All seemed fine. I worked on my lighting plot till 5 am but had some nice time with my bro during and Brek called me! We chatted for about 40 mins and found out we were going to the same concert on Friday. Woo hoo I get to see Brek this weekend. But like i said, I was up till 5 am working on that light plot and had to get up at 8 to go to school. Wasn't in the best of moods. I got my critique back on my Medea project and yeah it sucks, and of course she slammed me on my designs for Midsummer. I just feel like I don't cut it as a designer. Lighting was fine but because I was in such a bad mood and kind of whiney, my best friend wasn't very keen to it so that upset me all the more. Then I found out that Dave was really mad at me and compared me to his ex who is a total bitch. So that just added more upset to my day. I cried a little while we watched some lighting video, more more pressure WOO!!!! Angie and I had our portfolio reviews and I feel mine went well. I got to finally voice some concerns and opinions that I usually don't get to. Of course I got all teary again.
Then everything hit again on Friday. David still hadn't talked to me since Wed at lunch. I got a call from Liss during my lit class. It was serious... she usually doesn't call me during the day. She usually doesn't call.
I must have really pissed David off. Apparently he was going to stand me up for the Theatre Banquet and not let me know till 5 minutes before hand. He had told her and then told her not to tell me. He's such an ass! What the hell did i do to make him so upset at me?! I know david and he doesn't usually do mean things like that unless someone makes him really angry, so for him to do that to me, I must have done something awful. But i didn't! I broke down... I cried a lot. The only one I could find to comfort me was Mike. Mike is so great. He helped and suggested talking to David. So I did. I called Dave and we met so we could talk. He did not know at this point that I knew about how angry he was at me or what he was planning. I apologized to him for whatever I did and asked him what it was that I had done. He simply said it was little things that added up. I felt that if something I did bothered him, he needed to let me know so I would stop doing it and we wouldn't have that problem. Like when we first dated, I used to hit him alot, just playful like. Well I learned that he didn't like that, so I stopped! See how easy that is?! Well since I had no idea I was irritating him, it just exploded.
Me: So when were you planning on talking to me again.
David: I don't know.. Next week.
Me: What about the Banquet.
David: I don't know... I hadn't thought about it that far.
BULLSHIT!!! A blatent lie right to my face. Gah!!! I'm so sick of his lying! Why can't he just be honest?! Is it so hard to tell the truth? Why does he have to lie? I don't deserve to be treated like this. If he really was my friend, he would never even think of wanting to hurt me. But he did, he planned on hurting me. We left deciding to take time away from each other and take a break from our friendship. I was overwhelmed and upset. Angie called me and I met with her, Alex, Mike, and Jayme. Angie bought me a drink... they made me feel so much better. When I think about David and my relationship.. it used to be good. We used to make each other happy. I don't think we do anymore. This break will be a good thing. I don't even know if we should be friends anymore. Friends don't treat each other like that.
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