Growth and Highdive
So.. I'm totally uber hot! lol. Conceited much?... perhaps. Ok. Maybe I am just a little narsistic but you know what, I spent most of my life as an ugly duckling, and as I've gotten older, the Lord has renewed my beauty and made me strong. I am beautiful in His Image and I'm happy to show it.
Enough with the ego masterbation. I guess I should be telling you about my evening. It was actually pretty fun despite Ben bailing on me to do some silly stuff like.. oh what is it.. homework and sleeping. Pshah! lol
No it's kewl. He did seem awfully tired and the more he's rested and caught up on his work, the more time he'll have for me. Today at lab we didn't talk or anything, but once lab was over he waited for me to finish cleaning up. We talked a bit and made plans for going fabric shopping in town this week. I was upset that he wouldn't be joining me this evening, but I made him promise to make it up. He's supposed to make me salad on Saturday and take me to see a movie. hehehe. I think that will do, for now. **evil grin**
But he was so cute when we were saying goodbye for the evening! He wrapped me up in a big warm hug and just held me for a minute and told me how happy it makes him to see me. That it's always a joy to see me. That made me feel so awesome, that I was bringing happiness and light into someone's life and world. Then we kind of started talking again, just jibber jabbering and then before he walked off he enveloped me in another strong embrace. He held me so tight and so close, our cheeks touched ever so lightly and it was so intimate a moment. Softly he whispered to me that I felt so good and we didn't want to let go, but remain locked, comforted, accepted, loved.
From this encounter, I know Ben likes me for sure with no doubt. And I've realized why exactly he's been so distant and that gradually with each day he's becoming more aware of how and what he feels. Even though it's going slow, I love how beautiful it unfolds slightly, each time we're together. People want to rush to imidiate physical intimacy (I'm guilty of it too) that they lose these ever so precious moments.
Needless to say I'm psyched about the next we see each other and I have that to get me through the rest of this week. Not that I couldn't have before, but now I have something to look forward to other than more work and homework. hehehe. Anywho.... I still went dancing. They had a band come through, "Machine in the Garden." Now they were alright. I really only enjoyed a couple of their songs, but overall it was decent. Rose and I hung out and talked and I jung out with Josh a bit. While Rose and I were talking, these two guys came up to us (obviously not a part of the Goth culture.. they were sporting white button up's and School T-Shirts) and started talking to us. Of course Rose and I were polite and talked with them. They were interested in the music and dancing and we were happy to discuss it with them. Then the four of us went and danced. It was fun. I just love to dance so I went crazy. Luckily the guy who was obviously hitting on me didn't touch me but just danced next to me. I have to give him and his boy props because they totally cut a rug! Lol they weren't the best of course, but hey.. I give them an "A" for effort! At least they danced and weren't lame and just stood off in the sidelines. At the end of the evening the one guy asked me for my number and wanted to call me... but... I'm sort of seeing someone right now, sorry.
I would have liked Ben to have been there, not because I didn't have fun or anything, but I would have liked to have shared the experience with him. Plus, there were a lot more people there than usual and better music than last week.Oh well.. I still enjoyed myself and hopefully he got some sleep or some work done, maybe both!
So.. I'm totally uber hot! lol. Conceited much?... perhaps. Ok. Maybe I am just a little narsistic but you know what, I spent most of my life as an ugly duckling, and as I've gotten older, the Lord has renewed my beauty and made me strong. I am beautiful in His Image and I'm happy to show it.
Enough with the ego masterbation. I guess I should be telling you about my evening. It was actually pretty fun despite Ben bailing on me to do some silly stuff like.. oh what is it.. homework and sleeping. Pshah! lol
No it's kewl. He did seem awfully tired and the more he's rested and caught up on his work, the more time he'll have for me. Today at lab we didn't talk or anything, but once lab was over he waited for me to finish cleaning up. We talked a bit and made plans for going fabric shopping in town this week. I was upset that he wouldn't be joining me this evening, but I made him promise to make it up. He's supposed to make me salad on Saturday and take me to see a movie. hehehe. I think that will do, for now. **evil grin**
But he was so cute when we were saying goodbye for the evening! He wrapped me up in a big warm hug and just held me for a minute and told me how happy it makes him to see me. That it's always a joy to see me. That made me feel so awesome, that I was bringing happiness and light into someone's life and world. Then we kind of started talking again, just jibber jabbering and then before he walked off he enveloped me in another strong embrace. He held me so tight and so close, our cheeks touched ever so lightly and it was so intimate a moment. Softly he whispered to me that I felt so good and we didn't want to let go, but remain locked, comforted, accepted, loved.
From this encounter, I know Ben likes me for sure with no doubt. And I've realized why exactly he's been so distant and that gradually with each day he's becoming more aware of how and what he feels. Even though it's going slow, I love how beautiful it unfolds slightly, each time we're together. People want to rush to imidiate physical intimacy (I'm guilty of it too) that they lose these ever so precious moments.
Needless to say I'm psyched about the next we see each other and I have that to get me through the rest of this week. Not that I couldn't have before, but now I have something to look forward to other than more work and homework. hehehe. Anywho.... I still went dancing. They had a band come through, "Machine in the Garden." Now they were alright. I really only enjoyed a couple of their songs, but overall it was decent. Rose and I hung out and talked and I jung out with Josh a bit. While Rose and I were talking, these two guys came up to us (obviously not a part of the Goth culture.. they were sporting white button up's and School T-Shirts) and started talking to us. Of course Rose and I were polite and talked with them. They were interested in the music and dancing and we were happy to discuss it with them. Then the four of us went and danced. It was fun. I just love to dance so I went crazy. Luckily the guy who was obviously hitting on me didn't touch me but just danced next to me. I have to give him and his boy props because they totally cut a rug! Lol they weren't the best of course, but hey.. I give them an "A" for effort! At least they danced and weren't lame and just stood off in the sidelines. At the end of the evening the one guy asked me for my number and wanted to call me... but... I'm sort of seeing someone right now, sorry.
I would have liked Ben to have been there, not because I didn't have fun or anything, but I would have liked to have shared the experience with him. Plus, there were a lot more people there than usual and better music than last week.Oh well.. I still enjoyed myself and hopefully he got some sleep or some work done, maybe both!
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