I suck as a Designer

I should be rendering. I have a major project due in two days. I should be painting. I don't want to. Well... I want to, but I don't want to. I was about to start painting, I had all my stuff together. Then I read my feedback from my last design, the Medea Project. It made me cry. It makes me feel so inept, like my work is bad. I thought my design was good. I liked what I designed. I don't want this next project to turn out the same way. I don't want to do it because I'm not good enough. I'm not a good painter. I'm a great sketcher. But when I turn in my paintings.. they don't equal what I had in mind. Just adding color seems to ruin my drawings. I've tried simply adding color pencils, it just looks terrible. I don't want to be a designer. I'm not good at it. I want to just make the costume and build the masks and stuff. I know I'm good at that. I know I can do that.

**sobs**