Emotionally Unstable

Some moments are good.. some moments are bad. I'm pissed off or I'm really depressed or something. My emotions are just all over the place and I can't seem to focus. I started school again today and I might get a job in Ft. Worth. Maybe those will help distract me from my suffering. Of course, that means I get to spend less time with Brek. Not that I've been spending that much time with him since Skinny Puppy. He didn't call me all weekend, he said he would call me Saturday. He sent me an e-mail this morning, but perhaps it would have been better he hadn't. I feel so stupid. Friday night he told me he had plans with his mother, helping her out again, but in the e-mail, he said he didn't remember what he did at all and ended up going to see fireworks. He didn't say with whom.. could have been his mother.. could have been with.. her. Then after work on Sunday, he went dancing. **sniffle** I don't know what I'm feeling. I just hurt. That's all i know.