Breaking the Silence and a spot 'o' courage

Current mood: peaceful

So most of today has been kind of bleh. There were good parts like having my bi-monthly (is that twice a month or two months?.. i mean twice a month), ok so we had our small group leader/coach breakfast that happens twice a month. Anyways.. the point is that that was fun. So anyways.. then I did some drawings, and then I had lunch with Pete and Laura and did more drawings. The drawing thing was ok... but.. i was still kind of (understatement much) miffed about Joe and sad. Then church happened! Church was fabulous! Seriously. The sermon was good, my buddy CJ was there, and I got to see Rafael who I haven't seen all week! It was goodness.

I didn't see Joe right away. But he did sit behind us, not as close as usual, but not far away either. After service I talked with CJ, talked with Rafael, talked with Mike, talked with Katie... Joe stood in his usual spot, waiting for me, obviously. He talked with other people but I'm sure he wanted to talk to me and sort this whole crazy situation out.

(ok so if you haven't noticed from my tone, not that there really is tone via blogger because there are no vocal noises and such, but I do remember learning about tone in AP english in highschool, so hopefully I'm able to in some manner get that across in this text.. ok so my tone is happy and things are better. Didn't really want to leave you on the edge of suspense with wondering what happened. Not that I wont tell you, just yeah.. no cliffhangers and such!)
So long story short I didn't get a chance to talk to Joe at church due to talking with other people on both ends and me needing to take Rafael home. Ok.. anyways this is where it gets good!
I got home and was checking e-mail and waiting for my mom to call, when my phone rang! I was like, "yay! it's mom!".. but it was JOE! I know.. crazy! Totally didn't think he'd call, but then again, I kind of thought he would. lol.

Ok.. so Joe had called. That's a good sign! He's never called before unless it was to return one of my calls. So already things are looking up. At least he's making an effort, whether it would be good or bad, at least he's trying. He asked if it was ok for me to talk and it was. I got comfy on my bed and waited for him to say what he needed to say. ... There was a lot of silence. I'm talking minutes went by with dead air over the phone. If Joe were a radio show host, he'd be fired his first day. lol. (ok so I'm hyper). I didn't want to push him, because this was something he needed to do himself. And after a couple minutes, he got the courage up and talked,
Joe: " I can tell that you're interested and want to pursue/start a relationship...... I do like you [score! He does like me!!] and I think you're cool. I like hanging out with you and I'm trying to figure this out..... You just have to understand that I have no experience in this sort of thing... I have no idea what I'm doing.... I don't even know where to begin or what to do...... ........I'm bringing alot of this to God ....... "

I then apologized for having been upset last night where in he assured me that had he been in my situation he would have been angry too.I then thanked him for being honest and open with me and for calling. I praised him for being honest and open and saying what he needed to say. I then encouraged him to call if he wanted to talk and if he wanted to hang out, to ask. I assured him that I was interested but that we barely knew each other and that I didn't mind just getting to know each other for now and seeing what happens.

It was a good little conversation. Things that needed to be said, were said and issues that needed to be resolved, were resolved. I think things are going to go better now. Hopefully he'll be more comfortable and more open, now I know what the boundaries are and where the focus is.