My December

"I'd give it all away, just to have somewhere to go to. Give it all away, to have someone to come home to."

I think Linkin Park wrote this song straight from my life. I listen to this song and it tears at my heart strings. Because I'm a girl that has everything in the world. The world is at my fingertips, but does that matter to me? No, not really. Money will come and go, just buys stuff that sits in my house. Most people probably look at me and think what a spoiled little rich girl. Am I? I think not. I know the value of a dollar and I don't waste money on everything and anything. My friend Liss told me she didn't believe I was because I use phrases such as "Too Expensive or pricey".. I bargain shop, and my attitude isn't geared in snobby direction. To me.. what matters in life is Love. It seems the one thing that I truly desire from life is the one thing that I can't have. Sure I have love from Jesus, my family and I have love from my friends, but the only thing lacking is love from that one special someone. I've been told to be patient and I have been and I guess I still should be. I don't want to be rushing into anything and ruin my life.

But how does one know when they've found 'the one?'
Is love at first possible?
Can you fall in love with someone in less than 2 weeks?
Can you be in love with someone you've never met face to face?
Is personality more important than attraction?
Is attraction more important than personality?
You're supposed to be equally yoked but with if you fall for someone who doesn't love God like you do?
Is it fair to leave that person if they won't accept Jesus?
Is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all?
Is is better to love than be loved?
Do all long distance relationships never last?
Do opposites attract?
Is love eternal?
Does size matter?
Can happiness ever be gained?
When you die, will you find the one you left behind?
When you find them will you recognize them?
Are soul mates for real?
Can you fall in love with an Angel?
Can a devil fall in love with you?

Just some questions running through my mind. In my dreams I see myself as one of those cute old women who are married to a cute old man and still are as in love when we first fell in love. Have been through our share of good times and bad times, but the good times always outway the bad times. All our dreams have come true and we have no regrets. Then one evening we'll say our evening prayer, slip off to bed, cuddle in our warm comfy bed, and fall asleep. When we wake we'll be walking hand in hand into the pearly gates, welcomed by the Lord. Yes.. my life is going to be awesome. I may get down sometimes, but I know I'm not alone. He's out there some where, just waiting for me. We're waiting on the Lord. Someday I'll have some where to go to.. and I'll have someone to come home to. Just gotta wait on the Lord.