Tragedy again!

So yeah... I was really really happy and excited about Jay Jay (Jacob). He liked me and it seemed that me dream would come to life. I mean it's one thing to go out on dates, it's another to have a boyfriend, it's totally different to be in a steady relationship, and nothing compares to when you're with the one you'll be with forever. I was thinking I might get that last one. Jacob is such a great guy, someone any girl would be proud to have. Maybe someday I will be with him, but it seems that today is not that day. After visiting him at work I was very worried that Jacob would not see me with his newly found 'heart shaped' glasses. Hence the recent song/poem. And later on tonight those worries were not dispelled, yet not confirmed. He does see as being a great person and I suppose if he was ready to date I would definately be one of the candidates. According to what he's said, he hasn't been able to enjoy the single life. Just living on ones own and being single. I have to respect that b/c that's where I've been lately and where I'm about to go. Though it did hurt me so much.. I had hoped to never have to feel that pain again. N*E*Ways... I have to respect what he needs and that is what I'm going to give him. If I do truly love care for him, his needs and desires come before mine. Besides.. there's still time.