Made a decision

I've decided not to live like this anymore. No this isn't a suicide note! I'm just saying, I'm not going to be the other woman, be the girl he runs to when things are bad, be the one who's convenient, the one to occupy his time till he can see her. I'm me and I deserve a lot more. This time I'm going to be stronger. This time I know my decision, I know why I made the decision, and I know that it's right. I should have listened to my gut feeling a long time ago. But most importantly I made a decision to not be with someone who does not love me and does not cherish me the way I should. I'm sorry it had to come to this, I think what we had could have been something special, but wait... he didn't love me. He loves Martha.They'll be happy together, as it should be. It's going to be o.k. The Lord is good and he'll take care of me. He always has, and always will. I just wonder if Dave cares... i guess it doesn't matter. I will survive. No I won't mearly survive, I'll Live!