Destined for Love

So yeah I've been really upset because I'm single again. Not that David and I were actually boyfriend/girlfriend or anything, but you know, might as well have been. Anywho.. the other night I was all boo-hooing and I got to praying about it. I really didn't know what to say because what do you say to God? "I'm sad because I'm alone." Duh! He kind of already knows that. So I let my soul cry out to Him for a sec and it was amazing at how fast he responded. Sometimes when God responds I never know whether or not it's actually God, or if it's me talking to myself. I'm pretty sure it was Him this time. So again I was crying and then I heard him.

Me: **sobbinb and speaking in tongues**
God: If you only knew what I have in store for you.
Me: I'm sure it's great God, but why do I have to wait.
God: It's going to come so soon... so suddenly.
Me: But I don't want to wait anymore.... **then i was thinking yeah i know he is going to be awesome, yeah I know I need to wait** Could you just help me out here? **I want to focus on God and not whomever i'm supposed to be with... insert more crying here.**
God: Hush now, Be still.
Then I fell asleep. :)

So yeah whomever he is, he's going to be awesome. It's just kind of hard to fight the desire to want to be with someone right now. But the Lord will help me. But I'm thinking, maybe I should give up David. He does make it very hard. It hurts everytime I'm with him because he reminds of what I don't have. Maybe I should give up my friendship with Jason as well. I mean, I've been waiting for him for so long and then he came around again but he hasn't made any effort to talk to me. Perhaps it would be best if I just didn't think about Jason anymore and go my seperate way. I don't know where he stands or anything at all! I wish I could talk to him. But he's never around, neither am I, but I've tried to contact him. We'll see what happens.