It's the waiting that sucks.

I want to e-mail Jason.... I'm really tempted to write him. Of course I still like him and I harbor a little bit of hope that we could have a meaningful relationship. I really want to focus on God but I wouldn't mind being with Jason either. I don't know if he still has feelings for me or not. We haven't talked in a while, and the last time we did speak, it was really akward. He hasn't tried to contact me since. Makes me think maybe he doesn't think about me that way anymore. I kind of would like to know so I could move on or just be more patient. The not knowing and the waiting suck. Of course it is also part of the fun of dating. The whole idea of mystery. Of course it would be nice to be able to just talk to him. I could still not know whether or not he likes me, but at least I'd have my buddy again. I really miss my Jay Jay. I hope he is doing well and I hope he knows I still think about him, and pray for him.