Movie Night
So Brek and I finally had our movie night. We've been planning on watching Underworld for about two months now. I guess we've been kind of busy. But that's kewl. So I arrived around 8 and we crashed on the couch to watch. Now this movie was quite interesting. I wasn't sure what exactly was going on and kept asking Brek questions. He'd just laugh and tell me to keep watching. I, of course, would get frustrated, pout, and just keep watching. It was a good movie. I like the vampires and the costumes. The story line was different and I liked it. Good movie.
I did notice something though. My desire for Brek is fading. The whole night, I sat on my end of the couch and never once attempted to try to cuddle with him, or even touch him. I can honestly say the urge wasn't there. Now it wasn't totally gone! But I can definately feel the difference. Alot of that probably had to do with the fact that I wasn't feeling too well so I was uncomfortable to begin with. Nevertheless, I'm getting to the point where I'm ok with just being his friend and realizing I deserve much better. Don't get me wrong, Brek is a great guy and has a lot of the qualities in a guy that I want, but I'm feeling more that he isn't the one. I'm coping well. Even though it is kind of sad to realize the 'love' is going away, it's nice to know that I still have this great friend!
Of course because this is Just My Life, something has to be totally messed up. As Brek walked me out to my car he was teasing me about walking in the grass. I have this thing about not liking to walk on it in my boots and people walking on it too much b/c then it kills the grass blah blah blah. So he likes to tromp through the grass and try to get me to. While attempting to avoid the grass, I stepped onto the curb and then I totally kissed pavement. I have to be one of the clumsiest people in the world! I couldn't believe it. I fell and right in front of Brek. Of course he rushed to see if I was alright and seemed quite worried. But I just laughed and turned 10 shades of red. I stood up with Brek's help and he kept asking me if I was o.k. I was fine. My knees felt funny, but nothing hurt. On the road home, however, I realized my right knee, where much of the force of the fall had been, was bleeding. Huh... blood. Meh.
Brek walked me to my car and we hugged goodbye. I felt akward hugging him. I didn't really feel like touching him. I felt wierd hugging him. Then, I was sad. With Brek, because I've been so angry and confused, I've lost a lot of emotion that I've felt for him. I cried a bit and told him how I felt so empty and distant. He could only reply with, "I've been so busy. Once everything calms down at work..." Well that doesn't matter because I'm moving in like three weeks. It's not going to get better between the two of us. We won't get to spend any time at all together, until December. Since the time I went to Houston, our relationship has taken a turn for the worse. A lot of it is that we don't have time for each other. He's too busy with his jobs, and I have school and my family to take care of. It's ok. We'll still call each other and e-mail. He'll always be my friend, and we'll always be there for each other.
Yay for moving on. Now I need a hottie by myside to keep me occupied. Anyone interested?
So Brek and I finally had our movie night. We've been planning on watching Underworld for about two months now. I guess we've been kind of busy. But that's kewl. So I arrived around 8 and we crashed on the couch to watch. Now this movie was quite interesting. I wasn't sure what exactly was going on and kept asking Brek questions. He'd just laugh and tell me to keep watching. I, of course, would get frustrated, pout, and just keep watching. It was a good movie. I like the vampires and the costumes. The story line was different and I liked it. Good movie.
I did notice something though. My desire for Brek is fading. The whole night, I sat on my end of the couch and never once attempted to try to cuddle with him, or even touch him. I can honestly say the urge wasn't there. Now it wasn't totally gone! But I can definately feel the difference. Alot of that probably had to do with the fact that I wasn't feeling too well so I was uncomfortable to begin with. Nevertheless, I'm getting to the point where I'm ok with just being his friend and realizing I deserve much better. Don't get me wrong, Brek is a great guy and has a lot of the qualities in a guy that I want, but I'm feeling more that he isn't the one. I'm coping well. Even though it is kind of sad to realize the 'love' is going away, it's nice to know that I still have this great friend!
Of course because this is Just My Life, something has to be totally messed up. As Brek walked me out to my car he was teasing me about walking in the grass. I have this thing about not liking to walk on it in my boots and people walking on it too much b/c then it kills the grass blah blah blah. So he likes to tromp through the grass and try to get me to. While attempting to avoid the grass, I stepped onto the curb and then I totally kissed pavement. I have to be one of the clumsiest people in the world! I couldn't believe it. I fell and right in front of Brek. Of course he rushed to see if I was alright and seemed quite worried. But I just laughed and turned 10 shades of red. I stood up with Brek's help and he kept asking me if I was o.k. I was fine. My knees felt funny, but nothing hurt. On the road home, however, I realized my right knee, where much of the force of the fall had been, was bleeding. Huh... blood. Meh.
Brek walked me to my car and we hugged goodbye. I felt akward hugging him. I didn't really feel like touching him. I felt wierd hugging him. Then, I was sad. With Brek, because I've been so angry and confused, I've lost a lot of emotion that I've felt for him. I cried a bit and told him how I felt so empty and distant. He could only reply with, "I've been so busy. Once everything calms down at work..." Well that doesn't matter because I'm moving in like three weeks. It's not going to get better between the two of us. We won't get to spend any time at all together, until December. Since the time I went to Houston, our relationship has taken a turn for the worse. A lot of it is that we don't have time for each other. He's too busy with his jobs, and I have school and my family to take care of. It's ok. We'll still call each other and e-mail. He'll always be my friend, and we'll always be there for each other.
Yay for moving on. Now I need a hottie by myside to keep me occupied. Anyone interested?
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