I still Love him!

For the past couple days I have been some what depressed. Not really bad depressed, but my heart aches. I went out with my friends the other night to celebrate Alex's 21st birthday. We went out to the Cheesecake Factory and had a lot of fun. Recently there have been a few guys who have had an interest in me. There is Pip, my chipmunk, and then there is this new guy Jason. Both of them are really sweet guys and are nice to me. However, There is little to no attraction there what so ever. Pip is cute in his own ways, but he's short and lives an hour away. Jason is very gentlemanly and such, but he's really unattractive and too hickish. This for some reason makes me feel even more alone. At the dinner party thing I took a date. His name is Eric and he's in the "Once Upon A Mattress" Cast. He's very handsome and is tall. What is strange about him is that he reminds me so much of Jay Jay ( you remember, Jacob) and he's one of the only hispanic males that I've ever found to be attractive. But of course because that's just my life, he does not like me 'that way'. Blah... yay rejection is so much fun. NOT! But even though these guys are in my life, Brek is ever present on my mind and in my heart. I miss him so much and I love him so much. We haven't spoken or seen each other since that fateful night at Mythos. And even though he hurt me, I still love him. I still want to be with him. I can't get all those wonderful memories out of my head. I can't stop thinking about him. I just can't imagine spending the rest of my life without him in it. Brek... if you ever stumble upon this blog or anything else... I still love you.