Who am I?

I am no longer the person who I was before. Ever since the show, everything is different. I've changed so much and I don't know if it's for the good. I see some of the change and some of it is. I'm stronger than I was before, I have more confidence in myself, and I'm learning to stand up for myself. Nonetheless I see the consequences of these. I am easily annoyed, I'm more cold hearted, and selfish. How I deal with heartaches and hurt is with anger. I put up a wall and use anger to soothe my wounds. I've been wounded a lot and in my pain I've caused a lot of pain. I look over the past couple months and all that surrounds me is sorrow and hurt. I don't want to be the cause of that anymore. I'm so sorry for anything I've done to harm others, whether unintentional or with a motive. I can't express enough how sorry I am for all that I've done. I am only human, but there is no excuse. I haven't had the greatest christian attitude or outlook on my situations. For that I've had to pay the price. But I plan on making things right. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore, especially the people I love dearly. I hope I never cause anyone pain or hurt again and I'll try my best to do so. Lord give me strength. May He quickly heal and comfort all those who have suffered at my hand. Forgive me Lord. The bible reads that within the tongue holds the power of life and death. It also says to cut off those things which cause you to sin. If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off, if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out. This blog has brought nothing but harm to my friends and people around me. Therefore, this will be my last blog. Also, I'm the one causing all the pain. I'm moving on as to not allow myself to be hurt anymore, as well as to not hurt others. Yes my absence may be missed and I'll miss those who I've been close with, in some cases it won't matter, but in the end we will all be better for it.

Farewell and God Bless.