Great Day

Yeah I had a great day at work today. It was really fun. Just wanted to say yay and stuff. Woot!

Realizations...

I was talking with an old friend tonight and discussing his plans for his wedding and honeymoon. I was quite excited that my friend has found someone with whom he can share the rest of his life and all his love. He told me they were planning a small wedding which is cute and understandable. Then I asked where they planned on going for their honeymoon. He told me they were discussing San Antonio, Galveston, or a cruise out of Galveston. I burst out saying that he should take her on the cruise and that San Antonio was NOT a honeymoon. After a few minutes of silence he responded with a very meaningful reply that though he was honest.. really hurt. He said that it doesn't matter where they were all that mattered was that they would be together etc etc. I felt so stupid and so ashamed. So many of my friends have recently gotten married and I remember their weddings and honeymoons. Small and simple. And at times I think.. "that isn't a wedding.. that isn't a honeymoon." Then I look at the plan of my life and the things that I want and I feel so selfish, petty, and spoiled. The wedding I've envisioned is something huge, a costume wedding. I've designed my own dress, the suit for whomever I marry, the bridesmaids ensembles, the guys' outfits, the usher's, the priest, even our parents'. I want to be married in the Chinese Water Garden's at the Botanical Garden's in Ft. Worth and then have a lovely reception. I'm thinking an elegant tea party but in the light of my costume gala, an Alice in Wonderland Tea Party. hehehe. Afterwards, my new hubby and I will slip off and take an excursion to Scotland or Ireland for a romantic two weeks. I honestly feel so horrible. Am I wrong to want these things? If I'm not, Am I wrong to not accept anything less than my dreams? Am I truly the spoiled brat that I've so frequently been called? Sometimes I think that these people settled but I forget that they can't afford much else. See! That's what I'm talking about.. I AM A SPOILED BRAT!!!!!!