My Spring Break

Spring Break is generally the time when herds of college students rush to the beaches to party hard and have a good time. Of course that usually consists of running around in a drunken stupor and sleeping with anyone who will give it up. Hmmm... beer, sex, the beach... sounds like fun. Well.. the beach part does, but we remember what happened last Spring Break when i went to the Beach. It was so boring! So being the sensitive, family oriented person that I am, I decided to visit my grandma in Pennsylvania. Now you're probably thinking, HOW BORING!... but it really wasn't. In fact, it was quite relaxing. I didn't have to do anything. Nothing to read, nothing to work on, just me, my family, and the beautiful Pennsylvanian hills. I had been kind of dreading the cold, but the Lord is good and brought the temperature up to a blessed 70 degrees. Just perfect for lounging about outside. On the trip to my Grandmother's house from the airport she asks me;
G-Ma: " What would you like to do?"
Me: "I was thinking of taking a hike, maybe doing some fishing, play some cards, perhaps cruise the mall.. stuff like that."
G-Ma: "Want to go see some strippers tonight? They are having a big thing at ....."
Me: "uhhh......"
Needless to say we did not go see strippers. I'm not into that. Though I think she really would have taken me. **shivers** Hmm.. seeing strippers with my Grandmother. How wierd would that have been?! On my list.. I think i only took a hike, of course it was only a half an hour one, was hoping it'd be an all day thing. But situations did not allow. I did get to visit some people. I visited Nancy and her husband Terry. It was nice being able to see them. Nancy is such a sweet lady. Of course.. she did offer me a beer .... I'm still underage so I said no and besides I detest beer. :) Then I visited my Great Grandmother. She's almost 90 and still trucking along. ..
I had looked forward to spending time with my little cousin Ashley but the poor dear was sick. She felt bad during the time I was there. I would love for her to come down to Texas so I could take her to the museum, the Zoo, to a movie, and just have a great time with her. Maybe....
Something quite interesting happened while I was in Pennsylvania. I was looking through my e-mail and recieved a "Someone wants to meet you" from Hot Or Not. (I happen to be neither Hot or Not, I"m just average. YAY? Beware... it it not the place to have an ego boost )
Never the less I looked at this individuals profile and thought, "oh.. he's cute.. he wants to meet me? One little e-mail won't hurt. That one little e-mail led us to talking online into the late hours of the night for over a week. He seems like a really nice guy, very intelligent, and stange (i love stange). He seems to like me alot too. I gotta be careful though. I'm sick of getting hurt. Take it slow. Take it slow.

The Thorn in My Side

Well it seems that I have been cursed to forever be alone. I'm one of those people who will never fine love throughout their entire existance. Doomed to wander the world without someone by my side. I will be one of those old wrinkly ladies with thousands of cats and little children will run passed my house screaming, "Run!! Run from the crazy Cat lady!!!" Don't laugh... it's quite possible true. What has made me make such a judgement... well let's see, I'm single, always been single, always rejected, always seem to attract the "wrong' kind of guy, and though I know I'm a great person no one seems to notice (cept my buddies, Love you all!). The main thing that triggered this in my mind was attending Intersection. Was a normal service with the usual great worship, hilarious yet most informative skits, lots of people... however.. my friend Sarah was not present and there was a most unheartening story told. Yes I've admitted before in the past that I'm head over heels for Rick Gebauer. Who wouldn't be?! So he is talking to the youth group, giving his sermon, and all was well. But then he goes into some off the subject kind of story, as he tends to do. This anecdote however was not the usual embarrasing stories, neither was about his lack of love, in fact it was about a date.
Rick: "So I just went out on a date not too long ago..." (the youth group cheers, 'cept for me who is totally stunned)
Wait a second.. isn't this the guy who just told me not too long ago that the Lord hasn't put that into his life? Uhhh....
Rick: "You all know me.. when a girl asks me to go on a date I'm all 'YES!'"
Hmm... I do recall telling Rick how I felt about him and I never got that kind of reaction... Little to be known I left right away. I just couldn't handle it. So really, is there something wrong with me? I don't think so. I'm cute, I'm intelligent, I have a bright future ahead of me. Well.. like I said, I'm cursed forever to be alone.

Praise Jesus kind of Weather

I'm so happy it isn't cold anymore! I really do hate being cold! But for the past two weeks it has been blissfully gorgeous outside! The temperature ranging between the high 50's and mid 70's. It's such a great feeling to sit in the grass and just let the gentle breeze flow lightly over you. Not worrying that you might get frost bit or having to wear jackets. I dislike wearing jackets mainly because they make me feel fat. The more clothes I wear the worse I feel, but then again not wearing enough to cover me makes me feel fat too. But in this kind of weather I feel fabulous. I can wear all my cute outfits and short skirts and score! I get to wear sandals! The fascination with me wearing sandals is beyond me. I suppose mainly b/c I really like my feet and think they are pretty I always to show em off. But I also just don't like wearing shoes. Walking in heels hurts after a while, boots hurt sometimes too and really constrain my little toes, and regular shoes.. well.. they don't really go with my cute outfits. Hmm.. how did i get from the weather to close?! Pht.. there i go again.. ranting away. Back to laying in the grass.... When you're laying in the grass and looking up at a beautiful blue sky you kind of forget your problems, you get lost in the moment and feel at peace. Gaze at the clouds for a minute or two, nah.. take twenty, heck.. take an hour! There are so many thing that the clouds can tell you. They don't have to be boring either. Use your imagination. Do you see a bunny? Maybe a horse? OH I think i just saw a big pile of mashed potatoes. ;) hehehe. Have fun with it, I do. One thing that was funny once as I lay there pondering life's biggest question.. "What will I have for dinner?".. no.. i'm kidding. Anways, I was there in my happy solitude unexpected of what was coming towards me, unaware of the eminent danger, totally clueless to what was about to happen. **pounce** Two beagle puppies jumped on me and preceded to make sure I had my daily dose of loving. ... Sometimes during this type of weather it makes me feel very down to earth and almost like I don't belong in this century. I want to plant my own garden, flowers and veggies,live in a cute cottage house (like in fairy tales) in a happy forest next to a babbling brook with a stone bridge over it, sit some where in the depth of the wood and converse with fairies and all the woodland creatures. Then at times I want to become a dragon and soar high through the sky. The things this weather does to me. Well Praise Jesus for the weather.