The dilemma of a costumer

Inspired by Shakespeare's Hamlet.

To sew or not to sew, that is the question.
Whether tis nobler in the mind to suffer the pins and needles of outrageous costume
Or to take scissors again a sea of fabric
And by stitching, finish it.
To sew,
To sleep, no more and by a sleep
We say we delay the heartache and the thousand needle pricks that our fingers are heir to.

So I wasn't sure if I should clean the house some more, start working on my Scarborough Costume, or simply go to bed. Well all those ideas flew out the window when I just realized I have to finish my Asst. Costume Designer Self Evaluation.

I suck as a Designer

I should be rendering. I have a major project due in two days. I should be painting. I don't want to. Well... I want to, but I don't want to. I was about to start painting, I had all my stuff together. Then I read my feedback from my last design, the Medea Project. It made me cry. It makes me feel so inept, like my work is bad. I thought my design was good. I liked what I designed. I don't want this next project to turn out the same way. I don't want to do it because I'm not good enough. I'm not a good painter. I'm a great sketcher. But when I turn in my paintings.. they don't equal what I had in mind. Just adding color seems to ruin my drawings. I've tried simply adding color pencils, it just looks terrible. I don't want to be a designer. I'm not good at it. I want to just make the costume and build the masks and stuff. I know I'm good at that. I know I can do that.

**sobs**