Baby Steps
Current mood: Wiggly
This really is me simply avoiding homework, wasting time, and procrastinating. Heh.. but also a small informative e-mail on the status of Joe and me.
I really wanted to spend time with Joe tonight, watch that movie we didn't get to watch last week. I wasn't sure if I should call him up or just wait till church. I figured if I waited, I might miss my chance and called him anyways. I didn't want to show up to church and have him tell me he had already made plans with his buddies or something. Anyways... We chit chatted a bit and then I finally got the courage up to ask if he was available to watch a movie tonight.
Unfortunately he had made plans with himself to do homework after 703. Le sigh. Well I suppose that's ok. I figured, well, another time. He informed me that he had a couple test this week and such and I wasn't sure if he was meaning, "after these tests then we can do something" or "I'm really busy so we're never going to hang out." I didn't even try to push the meaning, just let him talk.
We didn't stay on the phone long, we both had things we wanted to do before church.
A couple hours later I walked into church, greeted by the most delictable Joe. (He's a greeter, so.. not like it was anything special. But I got to see him.. yay!) Rafael, Claire and I sat in our usual spot and a little before service began, Joe walked in, having been released from his greeting duty. Usually, Joe sits in front of the sound booth in the middle some where. But recently, he's been sitting behind my friends and I. I can't quite figure what this means also. I'm thinking it's that he wants to be close to me but not ready to jump ship and actually sit with me, as though that means some sort of commitment.
After service I sat there.. waiting, just sitting, relaxing. I turned around and Joe was kind of pacing around as though he were looking for someone. I pulled a box of tea out of my bag. You see, Joe has this newly found love of Earl Grey Tea and since my mother and I have a friend from London, she always brings and sends us hoards of tea. So I had an extra box and figured I'd give it to Joe as a symbol of friendship and affection. He came and sat down behind us again and I handed him the tea. He seemed to really like it, I mean, duh, it's his favorite tea. He then coined it to be an Easter gift which I suppse it could be. I didn't think about that. We then sat there and talked.. there were a few akward moments and some of the things we said were akward too, but it was nice just talking with him as usual. Occasionally other friends of ours would come and chat with us. Over all I think we sat there together for like, an hour just talking. Before we knew it.. the small group of people that remained in the sanctuary were being shuffled out.
We walked out together but then I got distracted by an old acquantense, Kenny. I hadn't seen him in forever and I wanted to say hi. While we talked, which was only a couple minutes, Joe waited for me. He didn't stand there while Kenny and I talked but was in the next room over, standing quite posed and rather adorably, obviously waiting for me to come back and walk with him. He was so freaking cute! When Kenny and I had said goodbye I walked over towards Joe and I could have sworn his head was going to explode with ego as if he were thinking, "yeah that's right.. she's walking out with me. Take that sucka!" to Kenny. I could have eaten him up right then and there, so cute. We walked up towards the exits but had to part ways as we had parked on opposite ends of the building. We stood there for mere seconds, but it was a tense and uncomfortable couple seconds. I wanted to hug him as we said goodbye. But as the seconds strained on we eventually just said bye, turned, and walked away.
I really really really wanted to hug him! He was just standing there being so cute and such. Plus, I figured with the present and it being Easter, I think it would have been ok. But we both hesitated and lost the chance.
And that was our evening, can you tell whether or not he likes me back or am I just making all this stuff up?! Le sigh.
Current mood: Wiggly
This really is me simply avoiding homework, wasting time, and procrastinating. Heh.. but also a small informative e-mail on the status of Joe and me.
I really wanted to spend time with Joe tonight, watch that movie we didn't get to watch last week. I wasn't sure if I should call him up or just wait till church. I figured if I waited, I might miss my chance and called him anyways. I didn't want to show up to church and have him tell me he had already made plans with his buddies or something. Anyways... We chit chatted a bit and then I finally got the courage up to ask if he was available to watch a movie tonight.
Unfortunately he had made plans with himself to do homework after 703. Le sigh. Well I suppose that's ok. I figured, well, another time. He informed me that he had a couple test this week and such and I wasn't sure if he was meaning, "after these tests then we can do something" or "I'm really busy so we're never going to hang out." I didn't even try to push the meaning, just let him talk.
We didn't stay on the phone long, we both had things we wanted to do before church.
A couple hours later I walked into church, greeted by the most delictable Joe. (He's a greeter, so.. not like it was anything special. But I got to see him.. yay!) Rafael, Claire and I sat in our usual spot and a little before service began, Joe walked in, having been released from his greeting duty. Usually, Joe sits in front of the sound booth in the middle some where. But recently, he's been sitting behind my friends and I. I can't quite figure what this means also. I'm thinking it's that he wants to be close to me but not ready to jump ship and actually sit with me, as though that means some sort of commitment.
After service I sat there.. waiting, just sitting, relaxing. I turned around and Joe was kind of pacing around as though he were looking for someone. I pulled a box of tea out of my bag. You see, Joe has this newly found love of Earl Grey Tea and since my mother and I have a friend from London, she always brings and sends us hoards of tea. So I had an extra box and figured I'd give it to Joe as a symbol of friendship and affection. He came and sat down behind us again and I handed him the tea. He seemed to really like it, I mean, duh, it's his favorite tea. He then coined it to be an Easter gift which I suppse it could be. I didn't think about that. We then sat there and talked.. there were a few akward moments and some of the things we said were akward too, but it was nice just talking with him as usual. Occasionally other friends of ours would come and chat with us. Over all I think we sat there together for like, an hour just talking. Before we knew it.. the small group of people that remained in the sanctuary were being shuffled out.
We walked out together but then I got distracted by an old acquantense, Kenny. I hadn't seen him in forever and I wanted to say hi. While we talked, which was only a couple minutes, Joe waited for me. He didn't stand there while Kenny and I talked but was in the next room over, standing quite posed and rather adorably, obviously waiting for me to come back and walk with him. He was so freaking cute! When Kenny and I had said goodbye I walked over towards Joe and I could have sworn his head was going to explode with ego as if he were thinking, "yeah that's right.. she's walking out with me. Take that sucka!" to Kenny. I could have eaten him up right then and there, so cute. We walked up towards the exits but had to part ways as we had parked on opposite ends of the building. We stood there for mere seconds, but it was a tense and uncomfortable couple seconds. I wanted to hug him as we said goodbye. But as the seconds strained on we eventually just said bye, turned, and walked away.
I really really really wanted to hug him! He was just standing there being so cute and such. Plus, I figured with the present and it being Easter, I think it would have been ok. But we both hesitated and lost the chance.
And that was our evening, can you tell whether or not he likes me back or am I just making all this stuff up?! Le sigh.
